It’s normal and common to feel bad, even a bit depressed during major Saturn transits (to your Asc, Moon, etc). I know what that’s like, because I have a history of depression and burnout that goes back to high school (decades).
But I’ve also made major changes in my life during major Saturn transits — because I believed in myself, made big decisions, and accepted help from friends and family to do it.
I’m going through a Saturn transit conjunct my natal Moon right now and I feel great. I feel like encouraging other people to have hope and know these ‘down’ times are only temporary.
The secret is these kinds of Saturn transits bring up unworthiness. So we feel down or depressed or stagnant to the extent that we feel unworthy of happiness or well being. The other part of the secret is that because of Saturn’s social interface through paternalistic familial influence (father, teacher figures) we begin putting on ourselves expectations pre-fabricated by these people and society without our input. We start expecting things of ourselves they do — even without cause or leeway given to our uniqueness.
You don’t have to.
You can literally just stop believing in all the stuff you’ve heard people say about success and failure, stop saying it to yourself. Stop believing in failure (or success).
Instead — be true to yourself today by re-committing yourself to understanding yourself best you can, trusting yourself to make the next move, trusting yourself to follow your own ideals.
Stop taking off-the-rack beliefs about success or failure. Stop believing because you haven’t made it by 30 (or any other age) that you’re failing. No, you’re on a journey and you’re on a path that is your own. Your parents, grandparents, and teachers haven’t been in your shoes or down this path — and they never will. If you don’t trust yourself to make the right moves and decisions for you there is always the chance you’ll feel like a failure or feel unworthy.
Saturn’s influence is a bit like lead, slower and heavier, but we all have times where things slow down a bit or feel heavier. Don’t let it steal your emotional balance or perspective on yourself and life.
What matters most is what you’ve pieced together by the end of your life. Something you can look back on and be proud of — not because its big or glows like the legends of worldly success put forth by the generators of motivational sayings and glossy magazines. Because it resonates with the real you inside and is true to your integrity.
Why gauge our worth by someone else’s outer appearances?
Most of us are never going to be “successful” by the standards of inventors or celebrities. Be true to your principles and ideals, and if you’ve not developed those yet, it’s never too late.
The secret is to re-parent yourself like the father (or mother) you wish you had. It takes time. I’m nearly 50 and I can’t say I’ve got it down yet — but I’m a lot closer and doing a lot better at it. I’m better at treating others the way I want to be treated.
You never have to look forward to unavoidable and inevitable Saturn transits with a sense of dread. Yes, it might be a time of a bit of struggle, but don’t let it sour your attitude. Attitude is 90% of life. The other 10% is relatively trivial.
You never have to worry or be afraid of what Saturn might do … (to me). It brings the circumstantial stuff of life: delays and challenges to meet. That’s life. Don’t fear it. Anticipation of something bad from Saturn is exactly the fear you need to let go of to overcome it.
Peace — and be good to yourselves.